Let’s Win the Lottery!

Trying to be quiet tonight.

Many years ago, my normal bedtime was 11pm or so.   I would lay down and be out cold in a matter of minutes.   Sleep, completely undisturbed.   The situation has changed radically.  No need for details.   Just gave it my all to reverse my upside down sleep schedule.  Very painful and unfulfilling attempt.

I firmly believe in entering sweepstakes, such as Publishers Clearing House and HGTV home giveaway.  My reasoning?  Some one person has to win.   Why not me?   I stand as good a chance, odds wise, as the next person.    Hell, with my luck, I think my odds are better!

You just need to participate.  You cannot win without entering.  You cannot stop this life destroying entity unless you fight.  You fight by getting up each day, or night, and participate in life.   I would not presume to claim it is easy.   I know how difficult this crap can be.    Just do not quit.  We have the right to live our lives.  No one has the right to take our lives away.  No one.

I keep writing every department/agency in this country.   Just like the sweepstakes.  You need to enter to win.

Positivity

Today, I will try something different.  Positivity.  Here we go.

Two nights ago, actually it was during the day, I had 4 straight hours of sleep.   Sleep level?  Do not know.   Do not care, I needed sleep.  Felt great!

I had to find a new method of advertising my websites so I wrote an article.  Submitted it to Ezines.com  Still waiting for article to be approved but the positive aspect was my ability to write the article.

I managed to cook up my pork chop, around 3 am, without too much screaming in my head or body bashing.  Ok.  This one is questionable.

I put nail polish on.  I do not believe I was penalized in anyway whatsoever for this flagrant display of vanity.

Have not seen my daughter and granddaughter in approximately 4 months.  They live around the corner.  The positive?  I heard her voice, from the phone, as she spoke with her brother.  She does not stay in touch on a regular basis and this was a positive.

I live in New Jersey.  Winter is damn cold in New Jersey.  Furnace broke in my house in New Jersey.   52 degree temperature, in my home, in winter, in New Jersey for 4 days was pretty awful.  Furnace is fixed.  Positivity.

I paid my taxes.  I paid my estimated taxes.  Talk about wanting to spit nails…  Cannot help but wonder, who’s salary or year end bonus I provided.